FEELING AND BEEING

Is my life really this lame? Second night in a row on a weekend, and I'm sitting here in my room. All by myself. Doing nothing. Well, because of the lack of things to do I'm now done with all the seasons of how I met your mother. And now I'mwatcing Star Wars, for the first time in my life. I have no life. Litteraly. Except from watching a lot of series and random movies I'm going to the gym. I know that is good for me, but it would be nice once in a while to go with someone.

So, my wonderfull life so far in the big UK. I thought it was going to be the best time of my life. Well, yeah. All those good times, i'm really glad for all that. And no, I didn't expect every single day to be off the hook. And not to speak about the people I've met, I'm so glad I've met them. But still. I didn't expect a lot of weekends to be so lonely. And for a person with fear of staying too long by herself, understand me right, I enjoy my own company, but I need to know that there are some people there at all time I just can talk to whenever. I know a lot of people would say, hey! You know you can call me. But I don't like to cry in front of people, and I don't like people to know that I can cry. As stupid as it sounds, that's exacly how I feel.
I just feel really alone right now, and there is really nothing I can do. I feel to awkward to go to people I haven't hung out with without other people, and also tryed but not reached.
With my exiting life I might as well start to play world of warcraft. Or maybe I should just do nothing, as I'm already doing.
So. I don't know why I'm arguing in my head! I don't know what to do!! I just really don't like feeling alone. That's the thing. being alone and feeling alone is two different things.


-Peace

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Sara Asia'h

05.feb.2012 kl.20:35

You are not alone. Det blir bedre. Jeg er glad i deg.

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Grethe Marita

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I am relaxed and full of life. I do exactly what I want and I never got plans, but at the same time, I'm always full booked. I have good friends who looks after me, and I try the best I can to do the same! These good friends are the reason that anything happens in my life, and other things than than it's fashion, art, literature and music that interest me and the topics I often blog about. I use the blog as a diary, it's kind of a therapy, and a way to empty my head and fill it up again with good ideas from the Internet. At the moment I'm living in Kingston, London and studying psychology and criminology. And I love it!

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