I feel like I'm fake on my blog. That the way i write doesn't sound like me. That whenever my fingers start to touch the keyboard I just turn into this stranger. I see so more negative here. I never write about things I like, or love, about my passions, I only write about things I don't like, and at some points, I feel like I'm kind of depressed, which is funny because I study psychology. I really would like to be me, a 100%, on the blog. But nothing really helps, does it? Do people like what I write? Do people like some of it at all? I often think this, but then I quickly remember that I did not make this blog for other people, but I made this for my own sake to empty my head. Refresh my top. You know, just write whatever falls thru my mind.
Some days I might sound happy as I was high on something, and some other days I might sound like I have suicide thoughts. But hey. I'm really a very jolly person and I like to smile and laugh a lot. But when I'm on my own it's nice to relax, put on that one song and feel like the worlds biggest emo. For me it goes in Evanesence, Billi Talent, My chemical Romance, Linkin Park, Papa Roach. Music that I never listen to, unless i'm in the mood for it, or wan't to be in the mood for it! But the music I listen to most if I just want to listen to noise is things as Drop Dead Gorgeous, The Devil Wears Prada, Seether, Alter Bridge, Scary Kids Scaring Kids and so on.........................................
I have to admit, that usually I laugh at music like this because it reminds me of old times, when I cared less of how I looked. Dunno, I told you I was emo.
I wonder when I'm actually starting to do what I desire to do instead of what I feel I'm doing now? If you have the answere, please gif.
Except for that, I want a new design on this shithole. I'll make a fancy one soon. Maybe.